Thursday, April 30, 2009

The Complicated Feeling When It All Started

Part 2 : The Complicated Feeling When It All Started

   When I was in high school, I was still thinking that fashion wouldn't be my option for studying after I graduate from it later. Since my older sister had already put her mind to choose this option for her career and I didn't want to or actually I'd never want to be a follower,and really hate to be judged as if I didn't have dreams of my own.I was actually glad I didn't have any interest in this field anyway.

   I saw that my mom also against her will to study fashion too, since the costs was quite expensive and she told my sister that she couldn't afford to pay for her school cause there were still 3 children  in this family to support, my brother, me and my little sister.well, we were a quite big family, with 5children in total. However, her(my sis) will was bigger than anyone else even our parent, so she came up with the idea of finding one job to help my parent supported her school fee. She worked in one supermarket from morning until late afternoon then as soon as she finished, she ran to the fashion school until a bit late at night. All of her salary was only for the school, no fun no shopping. After sometimes, she managed to finish the study and find a job. Luckily it was fast and she was happy.

There was a slight ambition growing inside me that I had to achieve better than her, although not in the same field.I was kind of dreaming maybe I would became a doctor but the doctor who like drawing,or a physics professor with drawing skills,etc.However, all of that dreams had fallen apart at the same time I failed in the entrance tests for state university. I've lost hope and will to look for private institute where I can continue my study, I preferred to stay and  did nothing just to cure my heartbroken feeling 'cause of my own failure.

My mom disliked seeing me like this, so she decided to find a proper school for at least filling up this year so I could re-take the test for famous art division in one state university next year.She told me to take this as the preparation by not wasting a year only for playing useless thing. She said that I had the ability, I just need to sharpened my skills. Honestly I had an extremely lack of confidence, I really underestimated myself. Since I was a quiet and introvert person, for me, each new place, new people, new situation would have been a great nightmare.Anyway, I found what my mom's words make sense in my mind, so I finally accepted her offers,and told her that I'd do as she said.

I was registered in two different schools, one was diploma major in English, and the other was fashion design. Each week I have to study these 2 at the same time, fashion in the afternoon and English in the night. My mom warned me not to neglect any of them,'cause she can't accept any failures. I knew she really meant with what she said, so I tried hard to do so. Although deep inside me, I was still confuse whether I made a right decision since this wasn't my dream at all in the beginning.( August 28th,1997) 


Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Fashion Legend : 1.Coco Chanel

Gabrielle Bonheur "Coco" Chanel (19 August 1883 – 10 January 1971) was a pioneering French fashion designer whose modernist philosophy,menswear-inspired fashions, and pursuit of expensive simplicity made her an important figure in 20th-century fashion.- Wikipedia. the complete biography of coco chanel-wikipedia, the chanel empire-wikipedia.
the link is the original source of the articles, and the content is not mine,I just want to share it here in my blog.

comment: I have always admired her for the simplicity, comfortable and elegant designs.The number one idol for fashion legend of all time.The one that let women use pants for the first time.

Witch Amusement (Korean Drama)

Comment: The thing that I paid attention a lot in this drama is the changing appearance of the girl to become more fashionable. and some of the clothes just caught my eyes. Great costumes :-)

I could not find more references on the clothes photos, but it will not hurt to watch the drama since it was quite amusing.

The Devil Wears Prada (US Film 2006)

.click here for the synopsis 
the photo  is not mine,I just want to share it here in my blog.

Comment: This is one of my favorite movie, the story is just great! and most of all, I love Meryl Streep's acting. The clothes are just adorable! totally fashion runway. Love it! no more words two thumbs up!

Old Photoshop Edited Poster Scraps

These were some of my photoshop editing works (which contained elements I didn't fully illustrate myself) for company's posters but finally they decided not to make it.

This is for personal portfolio purpose only. Any use of these image are not allowed.

Feel free to contact me if you're interested in similar type of illustration here: or I'll respond quite fast to any order or question.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

my design in you tube

i made this just to show some of my design from last year.

some of my design in some companies i've worked before

these are only one sample for each company that i've worked before.
the trouser was for mad rags burgs co. and the other was for malla ramdani boutique.
that time i really depend on my skill to draw for my work,but now this thing(drawing manually) has gradually changed into computerized designing,although the picture is great but for me the sense of art is far behind.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Some of My Old Hangtag Designs

Actually some of these designs were not made into production in the end due to the decision made by my boss. 
All i can do is just to keep these files as personal references and portfolios. 
Some of the designs contained elements that I did not create myself. Any use of these image are not allowed.

Feel free to contact me if you're interested in similar type of illustration here: or
I'll respond quite fast to any order or question. 

Friday, April 24, 2009

A Word Became Reality

Part 1: A Word Became Reality.
  This stage of my life, actually I have never expected it before. Due to the fact that in the beginning, I dislike to draw clothes. I just love to draw cartoon, landscapes that described my heart's mood, and I was really enjoying myself in expressing it into a picture in a paper.
  But then again, only God knows and through His power, my life has changed 180 degree in a few years later, and turned into doing something that I dislike, which is designing clothes.
  I have always proud of myself too much so that it was kind of a humiliation for me to take other people's opinion. Let's say I was a proud person back then. However, in the end, I have to eat my own word after this.
About 2 years ago, a girl named Anita, a friend I knew in the mosque,saw me drawing something. That time I drew a male face and a view. She then asked me to lend her my drawing so that she could take a good look at the, I gave it to her.
'Maybe it would be better for you, if you registered yourself into a fashion school to be a student after finishing your high school, so you can be a fashion designer,especially for Muslim clothes, 'cause it's still rare among us to have a Muslim fashion designer'. Those were the words I heard from her, maybe not exactly like that but the point was the same, since I hardly remember it now.

I was giving her (again) a selfish but honest answer that I did not want to follow her suggestion cause I did not have any slightest interest in fashion design. It seemed that karma fell upon me, 'cause in the end, I finally did as she said, although it was not my true will to study fashion design but more to fulfilling my mom's wish since I failed entering art faculty in one famous state university in my town. Just for one year, I have to bear with all of this fashion things and deal with my own dislike about it.(note of 28th august 1997) 

design drawings

these were from my early years of making hand drawing design for my school and my work too.

the early years of design

this one is the drawing when i was in design school and from the first company i've worked while studying fashion design.
actually its kinda hurtful everytime i see the picture where i used to work,coz all i can remember from it is that i've being used by my senior and they stole my ideas,then dumped me without feeling guilty.but anyway,im grateful i didn't last long working there since i've gained many experiences after that meanwhile my seniors still stuck in the same spot where they begin.

another hand drawing design

i made this when i was working for british guy.
he's very kind and taught me a lot.
i can never thanked him enough for the experiences with designs while working with him.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

my design by computer

these are some of my designs by computer.

my hand drawing design

i use to do this at the beginning of my career in the fashion industry,but now mostly use computer.